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I need advice
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It's not often that I find myself in a situation that I just don't know what to do in. I'm not backed in a corner, or hanging off a cliff or anything, actually. I'm trying to PREVENT that. As some of my closer friends know, I'm in Canada, studying. However in the few short months I've been here, things have happened that made me change my mind about the way I want to go about my career. I want to be an English Teacher for high school.
Anyways. I relied on a single person for my success here in Canada, and it wasn't me. My first big mistake. I came up here with dreams and a reality that would not be. My friend whom I relied on wound up getting into a domestic dispute with his soon to be ex-wife over their children. Great time right? Yea. I know. So now I'm stuck up here, with barely any money, not having a clear view of the future, completely exhausted etc. But with a shit load of freedom.
I recently went back down to Cali for my sisters wedding, and I realized how much I missed home. I decided to start looking into the Cal State Institutes, and got interested in one that I am currently applying to. Once again I have to wait on other people to get this shit done. I informed my friend this and he desperately wanted me to stay, so much so he offered to pay for my next semester here up in Canada. The offer is tempting. And even if I did get accepted to this University, I won't be going until next year, possibly spring or something.
This is where I am stuck.
Should I stay in Canada, and try to experience it to the fullest and if I do, what if this guy can't pull through on that either? Or should I give up and go home this summer and never look back?
I don't know if I want to go back to that life where I'm always stressed about making everyone else happy. Here at least I am free. But I don't see myself continue to get my degree up here.
Any suggestions would be happily taken. And I don't mind talking about the situation more, this is kind of just a glimpse.
-Dana
Anyways. I relied on a single person for my success here in Canada, and it wasn't me. My first big mistake. I came up here with dreams and a reality that would not be. My friend whom I relied on wound up getting into a domestic dispute with his soon to be ex-wife over their children. Great time right? Yea. I know. So now I'm stuck up here, with barely any money, not having a clear view of the future, completely exhausted etc. But with a shit load of freedom.
I recently went back down to Cali for my sisters wedding, and I realized how much I missed home. I decided to start looking into the Cal State Institutes, and got interested in one that I am currently applying to. Once again I have to wait on other people to get this shit done. I informed my friend this and he desperately wanted me to stay, so much so he offered to pay for my next semester here up in Canada. The offer is tempting. And even if I did get accepted to this University, I won't be going until next year, possibly spring or something.
This is where I am stuck.
Should I stay in Canada, and try to experience it to the fullest and if I do, what if this guy can't pull through on that either? Or should I give up and go home this summer and never look back?
I don't know if I want to go back to that life where I'm always stressed about making everyone else happy. Here at least I am free. But I don't see myself continue to get my degree up here.
Any suggestions would be happily taken. And I don't mind talking about the situation more, this is kind of just a glimpse.
-Dana
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Just needed a new entry
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Yup, nothin much to talk about 
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Labor Day Weekend
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Just thought I'd update you:
Friday: Worked and couldnt find anything to do, no matter how desperately I searched.
Saturday: Woke up at 6, went swimming with a bud from school and did 1500 yards....for the first time in a year and a half. THEN went to go pick up a dude I knew from work and brought him to Gamestop at like, 10:30 cause he had no way of getting there and I had nothing better to do. From there, after we got his xbox, we chilled, he had a cig and we just talked. THEN we saw people walking around randomly with animals and went to the pet store across the street where I found he had a particular fondness for birds. He seriously got the meaner birds to come out of their cages and chill. It was awesome.
Then I went to work after getting pulled over and dropping him off.
SUNDAY: Went to work. Came home at like...5. That was when the party happened. These guys came in a few days before and were just chillin and told me about a party they were going to. It was being hosted by a civilian family that they worked with during the weekdays. I was informed that only 3 marines in all would be there. So I considered it.
When I got home, I was like...frig it, and went down to the beach to meet them. I only met one, whose name we shall call scarface. He has this little scar just under his eye and its easier to remember, we walked back to the shack they rented out and had a beer. We were later joined by nipples, who has his nipples pierced...which I happened to of played with most of the night. We watched a little bit of family guy, pinned scarface down and tickled him half to death, massaged the knots out of each others backs and then they pinned me down and tickled me till I cried 'rape' and 'I need an adult'. Basically hilarity ensued.
That very night I found out that nipples did an amazing retardo impersonation and went by the name steve. It was so fricken funny, I nearly peed myself....several times. The neighbors literally thought him retarded.
That night. I learned how to take off a nipple ring with my tongue, teased 2 guys to no ends from 6 to literally 1:30 in the morning. I also think I made some pretty lasting friends. I didn't think so at first but...when they came in today with their entire platoon, well, earlier I had asked them not to mention anything to anyone so I can keep my rep together, and they understood that. But the jokes man, the JOKES.
BTW. me and nipples, while we were alone were playing this game, called 'the nervous game'. basically its a tease game to see how long 2 people can stay REALLY close without the other getting nervous. We were about to start to kiss when both scarface and nutsack(the other guy who initially invited me but I hardly saw) decided to pop in. PERFECT MOVIE MOMENT. I erupted into a fit of giggles while nipples kicked at the door. Awesome. I rule at the nervous game.
Monday: Tried to recover. all pain all day. so worth it.
TUESDAY: This ssgt was ahead in line and my 2 guys -one was on one line the other was in mine 2 people behind the staff- and one look at each other, smiles instantly cracked. We just sat there grinning like friggin...whatever grins all the time. Then the ssgt asked me how my weekend was, and I was like: 'Loooooong, but it was a really, really good weekend.' At this my two guys started giggling. One look and I was cracking up too. Thank god for marines who couldn't put 2 and 2 together. So then nipples, who was in the other line gets back in line so we can talk and scarface, who is in my line just start chatting it up.
I later got a text stating that (scarface) he had never seen my smile so much. It felt sooo good.
I mean, I didn't get much out of the night. But I did get a couple of buds, a few giggles and a really awesome secret.
My labor day weekend.
Friday: Worked and couldnt find anything to do, no matter how desperately I searched.
Saturday: Woke up at 6, went swimming with a bud from school and did 1500 yards....for the first time in a year and a half. THEN went to go pick up a dude I knew from work and brought him to Gamestop at like, 10:30 cause he had no way of getting there and I had nothing better to do. From there, after we got his xbox, we chilled, he had a cig and we just talked. THEN we saw people walking around randomly with animals and went to the pet store across the street where I found he had a particular fondness for birds. He seriously got the meaner birds to come out of their cages and chill. It was awesome.
Then I went to work after getting pulled over and dropping him off.
SUNDAY: Went to work. Came home at like...5. That was when the party happened. These guys came in a few days before and were just chillin and told me about a party they were going to. It was being hosted by a civilian family that they worked with during the weekdays. I was informed that only 3 marines in all would be there. So I considered it.
When I got home, I was like...frig it, and went down to the beach to meet them. I only met one, whose name we shall call scarface. He has this little scar just under his eye and its easier to remember, we walked back to the shack they rented out and had a beer. We were later joined by nipples, who has his nipples pierced...which I happened to of played with most of the night. We watched a little bit of family guy, pinned scarface down and tickled him half to death, massaged the knots out of each others backs and then they pinned me down and tickled me till I cried 'rape' and 'I need an adult'. Basically hilarity ensued.
That very night I found out that nipples did an amazing retardo impersonation and went by the name steve. It was so fricken funny, I nearly peed myself....several times. The neighbors literally thought him retarded.
That night. I learned how to take off a nipple ring with my tongue, teased 2 guys to no ends from 6 to literally 1:30 in the morning. I also think I made some pretty lasting friends. I didn't think so at first but...when they came in today with their entire platoon, well, earlier I had asked them not to mention anything to anyone so I can keep my rep together, and they understood that. But the jokes man, the JOKES.
BTW. me and nipples, while we were alone were playing this game, called 'the nervous game'. basically its a tease game to see how long 2 people can stay REALLY close without the other getting nervous. We were about to start to kiss when both scarface and nutsack(the other guy who initially invited me but I hardly saw) decided to pop in. PERFECT MOVIE MOMENT. I erupted into a fit of giggles while nipples kicked at the door. Awesome. I rule at the nervous game.
Monday: Tried to recover. all pain all day. so worth it.
TUESDAY: This ssgt was ahead in line and my 2 guys -one was on one line the other was in mine 2 people behind the staff- and one look at each other, smiles instantly cracked. We just sat there grinning like friggin...whatever grins all the time. Then the ssgt asked me how my weekend was, and I was like: 'Loooooong, but it was a really, really good weekend.' At this my two guys started giggling. One look and I was cracking up too. Thank god for marines who couldn't put 2 and 2 together. So then nipples, who was in the other line gets back in line so we can talk and scarface, who is in my line just start chatting it up.
I later got a text stating that (scarface) he had never seen my smile so much. It felt sooo good.
I mean, I didn't get much out of the night. But I did get a couple of buds, a few giggles and a really awesome secret.
My labor day weekend.
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